Resign

I resigned yesterday.
A really terrible thing happened on Sunday night and made me wondered, what if tomorrow will be my last day in this world, what should I do ?

After a month of considering, I finally delivered my resign letter yesterday in person to Showroom.
With or without a job offer, I had decided to leave.

Working here is a really amazing experience I have to say honestly.
However, it tied me up too much.

Before I alwasy thinking, that I can do it, that I have all the skills to accomplish the tasks.
Then I realized that this job which I am doing currently requries more than two persons to achieve.

I have to stop pushing myself just to prove how great I am and how good I can be.
Insisting had just gained me too much pressure and stress which I couldn't live my own life well.

Surely, some people might says to me , it's because you didn't work hard enough, because you are a quiter, because you can't stand the stress like a grown up woman.

Well, I had been in person in the situation, and I don't feel anything like that above. So..I don't think that I will feel shame when someone talkes about this.

I tried my best and I felt sorry for the company which they recived this news in such short of time.
However, this is my life we are talking about.
I wanted to be honest to myself and be nice to myself.
Life is too short to waste on doing something I don't enjoy.

This time I didn't make this decision under stress or someone actually be forced.
I felt calm even I'm still waiting for another offer.

Start over & end up is the most normal thing in the life, that I shall never be afraid of.
Follow the heart, and it'll lead me to where I belong in each moment.

Cheers Progetto Showroom, you had taught me enough for moving on to next step.

House-changed
Job-quited
Love-good bye

New life is in the front of me, what should I complian more :)

break

I am so tired though,these morning I can't even get out of my bed.
I count it.....it's almost one month and I had just one day off.

is that even right?
how come I dont feel good or cool.

Body condition -low
Mood condition-low
weight—————low

if every single time comes campaign I always feel like shit, Then during the year,i will have this shit mood for four seasons.....

That's the first thing I wrote this morning when I woke up.

After 40 mins,now I can understand where this bad mood comes from,after all it's not the first time I felt thia way.

I kept working for higher position ,better condition just because I think often,it might be more easy if I can get out from this situation. It won't be more easy the life,and I should stop thinking it in this naive way as a child.

Lots of people has more time to figure that out,from a child to grown up.
unfortonately we don't(refers to who study or work.in aborad).
Not because we are better,because we have to treat each year as the last year in foreign country.
We don't know there is visa for the next year or not.

So we just have to run as further as we can.
However to me, my body is moving,but my mind still remains like a child.
telling oh it's not fair,expecting people to say yes you work too hard,or even got pissed off because I cant enjoy my weekend as others,going to be beach,hanging out with friends.....ect

I should see this coming when the time I determined to have a career here, that nothing is fair,that I have to work 200% harder to prove myself in foreign country,that I have to stand even I have to work for a month without a day off.
Because I am not child anymore. This is my opportunity for now,I just have to shut my mouth and keep moving.

It's hard,really hard,but who doesnt face the same situation as I do now.

Grow up!!
Things are never easy,and life will never be easy.

I want to be successful,and I have to work harder and harder,one day more than yesterday.

Before to get good success,must be sacrisfied things.

Cheers for hard life,only in thi way,we will create sth extrondinary in our once life.

connection

Life is full of suprices!
Today I was a little bit down with some personal issue.
And I am more sure that I need to focus on my career,instead of thinking more about other part of life.

After all,I desire to have more in my job,and of course to be  more succesful than now.
so stay alone and fight for what I need and want is the only thing which will help me to move faster.

anyway, today a new opportunity showed up to me.
I worked for showroom maybe for this reason as well.

I happenedly knew a buyer who is from hk,and this time in Paris we've chat more than usual.
(found out his gf is actually my classmatw in college)

Anyway,tonight we chat a little bit regarding an opportunity to cooperate.
Which I never expected and ot just happened.

A new chinese brand is growing up very fast like Jason Wu,and I heard they were searching for someone to lead their showoom in Milan.
I was really thinking to send my cv and rest,but at the end I thought thw fact lacking experience,I gave up.

This friend of mine tonight proposed the opportunity to cooperate for leading a showroom in Milan............

He needs someone who is from hometown and also knows the clients better in europe.

I cant believe it...........it's been a shock,although he is still finding his way to set all thw stuff,but I am more than willing to jump on.

That is why I said life is totally amazing becuase once you determined to accomplish sth,and stop feeling sorrow for those you cant have now.

opportunities will come along.
I.think god wants me to discover this by my own.

It knows now it's more than important to make my dream come true.

It will be the first thing I will accompish my work ever in my life.

something in my hand concrete.
Connection...wow

I wish things will actually happen,but if not,I will accept it in peace.

the opportunity will at the end come again.

Cheers for having my own life!
Grande!!!!

result 03-07-2013

I wanted to report my recent life in a very detail way.

But I never got the right moment and right mood to write it.
By traveling around,I felt reborn in a very postive way.

In a week,I traveled Paris and Berlin,which are the two cities I never ever interested and liked before.
However,this time,the opinion I insisted totally changed.
I fell in love with these two cities by just watching and everything suprised me.

I walked down alone the same street these days in these cities,and I think I found the true meaning of traveling.

No more checking for texts,no more aggitating,no more thinking what happened,no more self-sorrow and moreover,I don't feel tired by just walking around alone.

I wish so much that one day I can come back witout co-worker...so I can explose the city on my own.

Feels really relaxing even after 8 hr working in Trade Show.

keep practicing and explosing cities traveling,which I am sure one day I can travel alone to the places such as Istanbul and Africa.

I had decided in August I will start to learn another language such as French or Spanish in order to travel further.

Step by step , no hurry and no worries.

I made only one promise to myself,that never ever stop what I am doing or fighting just becuase I think about my past and the future.

fall in love myself and traveling are the two best results I have now ever since I started my happiness project.

What will I find the next? I can't wait to experiencing.

What I find in Berlin

celebration + scelta

I have to say,god always offers me this opportunity to make a chiose.
And sincerely that it's always been difficult for me to decide a thing.

I still in the decision progress,but I know that at this moment,it requires more silence than ever.

To stay alone and try to think every single little angle in the most calm way ever.

My next stop will be Berlin,and luckily tonight I have some time back home to relax a little bit.

Some jazz will help and of course some wine :)

Before I always have problem with wine, that right after I got dizzy, my emotion becomes really awful.

It's such a good thing to get to enjoy the wine and afterwards to feel peace and aloness.

I love this tone of life,althought people kept reminding me that I have my future to consider.

However,what will come,it will come.

Life in Paris is becoming fasinating because slow tone.

Remember I had written this article of being french woman?

When the time I wanted so badly to be that kind of woman,the more I tried the more I messed up my mind.
Now I look back,well,I don't know that I am which kind of woman,however; I felt something remain in peace inside of me.

I can focus totally in my work without thinking messages,mood,future.
And when I head home,it's totally empty.....that I found so nice to hang out with myself.
I am sorry that I didnt text back so much as before,not becuase I am mad or sad.
Its becuase I am addicted enjoying my own space and time.
Cheers for Paris trip.

:)

Paris day 2

Last night I had a brief interview for new job after september. I didnt expect too much although its a good opportunity.
I want it comes in a very nature way.
Which I had done and if it belongs to me,it will come in a very easy way.
However,I am quite happy after the meeting.
It offers me a great opportunity to Toscany.

I can live in both Milan and also in Luca in order to do both jobs. design-selling.

I do not have a map in my hand to know what is the next step,but I should overcome the anxiousity which caused by unknow future.

When I look around,I saw beautiful creativity all over.
It's Paris fashion week ,and I am part of it now.

It's not as fablous as in the movie,but being in the circle as a small role. I think I deserve a glass of wine to celebrate.
This is the progress,and I cant forward it fast.
I must find my way to enjoy everthing happens and everywhere I am.
Stop trying to control my life in a certain way.

Tim got the point,that for the whole time,I was acting a show to my being.
in front of my being,I need to be true.
Only in this way,I will find the pure me in the back of all the thoughts and emotion.

Cheers Paris!
Cheers for progress!
Cheers for me,I am proud of being Huang Yu Yang.

Because I fought for this name and given this name a dream life which I desire.

we shall never forget to feel proud for the road we chose.
This artical delicates to all who is fighting for their dreams.

in some way,we accomplished already something.
The result......come on it's not the most important.
The progress.....its the true meaning of success.