break

I am so tired though,these morning I can't even get out of my bed.
I count it.....it's almost one month and I had just one day off.

is that even right?
how come I dont feel good or cool.

Body condition -low
Mood condition-low
weight—————low

if every single time comes campaign I always feel like shit, Then during the year,i will have this shit mood for four seasons.....

That's the first thing I wrote this morning when I woke up.

After 40 mins,now I can understand where this bad mood comes from,after all it's not the first time I felt thia way.

I kept working for higher position ,better condition just because I think often,it might be more easy if I can get out from this situation. It won't be more easy the life,and I should stop thinking it in this naive way as a child.

Lots of people has more time to figure that out,from a child to grown up.
unfortonately we don't(refers to who study or work.in aborad).
Not because we are better,because we have to treat each year as the last year in foreign country.
We don't know there is visa for the next year or not.

So we just have to run as further as we can.
However to me, my body is moving,but my mind still remains like a child.
telling oh it's not fair,expecting people to say yes you work too hard,or even got pissed off because I cant enjoy my weekend as others,going to be beach,hanging out with friends.....ect

I should see this coming when the time I determined to have a career here, that nothing is fair,that I have to work 200% harder to prove myself in foreign country,that I have to stand even I have to work for a month without a day off.
Because I am not child anymore. This is my opportunity for now,I just have to shut my mouth and keep moving.

It's hard,really hard,but who doesnt face the same situation as I do now.

Grow up!!
Things are never easy,and life will never be easy.

I want to be successful,and I have to work harder and harder,one day more than yesterday.

Before to get good success,must be sacrisfied things.

Cheers for hard life,only in thi way,we will create sth extrondinary in our once life.