To meet the unknown self : Practice

“I am searching for the harm to be betrayed and not to be loved; I accepted it with all my heart and release the needs I require”

By my period is approaching, my mood becoming really unstable.

I tried a lot to cry it out like a baby.

Then when I calm down, I remembered that this book I read few months ago.

One chart of the book was saying that there is a reason to continue to be unhappy and stock in a bad mood.

It also says that all the life situation is projected by this needs which inside our inner.

For example, I always had problems to trust each bf that I had in the past, and I always the reason why they left because there were some other girls in their life, who are better than me..ect.

Or even when I was in a stable relationship, I always searched for clues that my other half might be cheating on me at the same time.

I am quite confused until I read this book.

It said that everyone person has some certain problems, which was affected by life experiences.

Of course we never tried to ask ourselves, what is my problem because when we are in the life situation , we often lost our mind and refused to consider all the possibilities.

However, if you think twice, you might lucky find out that some problems are caused of your fear which hidden inside of your heart.

And this fear slowly becomes a need, which requires to be fed by more pain, bad thoughts, and depression.

At the end you search for more evidence or you create another life situation for feeding, supporting this need.

There is a way to release yourself from this need, is to find out what scares you more and write down :

“I am searching for                                               ; I accepted it with all my heart and release the needs I require”

To remind yourself that everything happens in your life is just a projection from your conscious.

I am really tired of feeling hurt just because someone pressed like on some pictures, writing a sentence, uploading some pictures. And it can really make me cry for hours.

I want to be happy because I chose to be happy.

Friends say , this is who I am, so I should accept the way I am .

Well, but if I don’t feel happy about this part of me, why should I pretend that I am doing fine.

When I actually write down this sentence, feels like every doubt in my inner got released a little bit.

Like the book says> There is nobody outside, from the beginning to the end, only yourself being there.

We’ll see how my life situation will go by the practices.

To be continued!!

Cheers for trying to make a change for being happy.