Apology

I'd like to send my apology here to someone who I was crazy in love with.

How late that I realized that I hurted you.

In Jan, during the dinner, when I refused to follow you wherever you'll go in the future, I should have realized that our relationship would end soon.

I loved you, but I also made my choice.
That I wanted to have more sucess in my career instead of being someone's gf, someone's woman.
I didn't mean to harm you but I was being really honest.

Even you said that I can count on you, however, I never wanted to become your burden.
That's the reason that I kept pushing myself to be better and better.

Until today, I realized that you're forced to make this choice by leaving me.
Because of my choice.

You're a kind person that after that night, you didn't mention anymore.

I crashed your dreams to us, to future, to fly high.
And for this I think I owe you an apology.

I dreamed about the moment when we will be ready to leave together, to chase for our dreams together in another foreign country, just you and me.

But unfortunately it's still too early to take that step.

I would like to go , when we both are ready.

Not because one of us needs to , wants to and we must to proceed together against our own willing.

Forgive me as I forgive you.

We just made our choices, and it's something we need to cheer for.

Step by step, we'll become the persons we always dream of.
Step by step, if we're meant to be, the string which connects us will never break.

Cheers!