happiness project

Friend told me that her friend suggested her to write a daily dairy called grateful dairy.

She said : only if you are grateful each day, then you will learn to how to take each day as a cherish experience.

I smiled.

The reason why I started my happiness project was because I was suffered for a really simple reason, which I was really depressed.

Beginning from these days, I started to learn to be grateful to everything happened or is happening in my life.

I knew, and I believe something exciting, wonderful is waiting for me.

Just now I have a step to cross, and it might seems hard and lonely, however, I knew once I crossed through, I will become stronger.

Sometimes I have doubt regarding this idea of being grateful or believing something better is waiting for me.

The best solution to calm myself down is to write dairy..

I mentioned today to one of my good friend, which blog is becoming a really useful tool for me..to often reminds me that I am running my happiness project.

Reminding me that no matter what happened, this project can not be stopped, because once in my life I wish to be determined to the end.

Even blogging is not as important as saving the world…however, it became like a mirror, that every single time when I want to write an article, I am forced to face to the deepest insecure and the darkest fear.

Now that I learned one thing:

I never believed that I can be happy to be alone.

All this time I was running away from facing the fact that I must learn to enjoy my life alone.

Friends, family, lovers, are the plus, however, without the base only depends on plus, the happiness is just temporary.

I cooked for myself, I tasted wine myself, I listened to the music myself, I read myself..all the things prove that I am taking my step from a person who never believes being alone can be as fun as being with someone to slowly slowly surprised by the joy which being alone brings to me.

My other friend told me, in order to cure the insecurity, the best way is to front it.

I was afraid to being alone, because it seems like I lose all the attention, and without the attention I felt like I am no one.

And the most interesting is that when I finally learn how to be with myself, I started to receive messages from friends, who encourages me to continue my project because actually lots of people who cares of me is supporting this blog.

I want to thank all my friends or those who is reading.

I appreciate that you tried to get into my world and to understand the meaning why I started this project.

I am grateful today, because I had so much fun in work, relaxing on my way home on the tram the sun seems so warm and peace, meals are so delicious that I found my passion to cook again, and that I am still living.

By feeling, tasting, hearing, watching ..it proves that I am still alive.

I still have the possibilities to accomplish, to hunt for what I love and wish.

Step by step, I am about to start my new job, this time let me be honest with myself to say out loud what I want to  gain from work.

And bring the fun to work!!

Tuscany I am coming!

My heart leads me to Milan, and now my next stop will be Tuscany!

Cheers for away from the protecting umbrella, for the courage to new challenge!

Many thanks to Toughy, who never left and always will be as important as my brother, mentor and my best friend.