French Women

I want to be a French woman.

Ha.. I reviewed  lots of  articles today, and I found the only common on the bloggers and fashion web is this popular

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Clearly 80% of the women in the world wants to be a French woman.
But what is exactly french woman means?

After my research, I found out French Woman is not refering woman from France, who eats exclusive france cusine, who smokes, who looks elegant, who has open relationship..ect ,those  are just  too superficial.

The defination of French Women refers to a spirit >  independent, love her own, brave enough to search what she wants, and live in the way she desires.
French is just a adjective which can decorate this type of woman more colorful and fashionable.

However, in Franch, there were also lots of remarkble women which influenced us to carry the idea of French women> Coco Chanel, Marie-Louise-Elisabeth Vigee-Lebrun, Marie-Rosalie (Rosa) Bonheur..ect.

I define French women as a new goal for me to archive > confident, build a life, and be me.

What do I mean to be me?
well, for example, I always want to have short haircut, but unfortunatley I always think if I really cut it, I might lose my charm.

Today on the subway home, I finally make my mind to have a short haircut with bangs.

Charm needs to come from heart, not by following some certain trend/look to remain.
Everybody knows, but hardly not to follow this idea to change ,which is the way really make ourselves comfortable.

Build a life seems too heavy, but I cant find others words to describe.
well, I have to admit, I dont have so many italian friends, maybe cause I am afraid or I thought no one wants to friend me . so in some certain moment, I built a wall to stop everyone who is not asian to come in.

Which is not correct, because I am living here...after all.
Like my boss said, something has changed inside of me , just I am afriad to take down the catch which my world needs to be adjusted a little bit.

If I kept thinking people who doesnt want to be friend with me....then the universe will not help me. all the people comes around will be exactly I project.

I dont have to care so much, what if ... I really hang out with guys..maybe everyone might think it will be too fast for me to date.
Then I found something, wait!! do I really want to date someone or actually friend with someone.
For now, I just want to be friend with someone. Because without a life built by me, another relationship will be just another escape.

The truth is I decided to have a small asian social circle because I felt more comfortable, but I have to also admit that this is not the reason I came here.

I came to Milan for experiencing life, people, and culture.
And by knowing Italian cultrue, I cant only use the help by books or from work.

My goal was to prove that I can survive no matter where I am in this world, because I have a feeling that Milan will not be my last stop in my journey.

So, I want to get rid of all my thoughts for the moment.
Then just to enjoy.