start over

its been 3 weeks thatMy happibess project have been started until today.

I have to admit,project has gone in a way that confuses me a lot.

I realized yesterday that there is nothing I can prevent or perdict from the arrives of unfortune.

unfortune happens everyday,every single minute in this world because world is built by million of people and things.

No matter how hard I try to avoid unfortune , it comes anyway.
Because its life which I am facing.
The more I tried reveals my unperfection.

I will be living in the dark hole cause unperfection is exactly a biggest weakness I want to hide from everyone.

I just have to practice everytime when unfortune  comes, for sure I will be pissed,sad and unhappy at the moment.
might as well take a deep breathe and calm myself down to prepare to start over again.

By getting stronger everyday,soon or later I will pass through.

And soon or later,I wont be so afraid or worried for something might or might not happen.

The stregth which I  experienced will help me to be able to front my life.
It needs time and calm mind to absorb.

this is my conclusion for the third week.

My new task is to believe in things I am sure no matter how absurb sounds to others.
And shall never worry about for something isnt  happening yet.

when things which I cant figure out, I will tell myself-start all over again.