Double Spy

Recently I have to play a role like double spy.
My company and one of our best-selled brand are both the directors of this show.
Both of them want to keep their co-operation with me, however, it's not possible to work for both of them, because the best-selled brand is leaving to open their own showroom (and my manager is leaving also with them, he would like that me leave as well).

Alright, here is the thing.Since this season is the last season which the brand under our showroom.
what happened is I have to work for this brand as well, which I found it's fine because I learned a lot from my manager & the designers of the brand.

On the other hand, my showroom offers me more opportunity to create my idea regarding business management in fashion field, which thrills me a lot.

Both of them are pissed with one and another.
And unfortunately I have to secretly handle the tasks both of them gave to me.
I really cant take this role no more even just a minute.

It's so exhausted and both of them really love to try to know some secrets from me since I am in the middle.

I'd like to work in peace, and think in peace for the best  benifit for both of them.
I hate to see one of another failed because I am responsible for both.

It's getting harder and harder which I did hide myself today and tried to figure something out.

This show as I called made me realize how come my last relationship doomed at the end.
Because the anger to be alwasy in the middle, which cant be allowed to work 100% and love 100% is killing him.
Have fun 100% and love 100% also killed him.




Like today I got so pissed off to be informed I have to chose a side.

The feelings sucked, to be in the middle.

I must always remember my emotion today and thank god for awaring me in order not to make the same mistake again.

Because at some moment I had this idea ...lets get rid of both of them and I will be free again.

No wonder my relationship ends at the end.

Same anger, same desire , but different situations.

I want to say sorry , but I prefer gift him peace & space  instead of  another sorry text.

Although I am still shaking by my feelings but I am glad God leads me to this conclusion.