lost and found

After I sent my CV to this company which I always dreamed of working in, I felt really nervous.
You have to be one of million to obtain this interview.

Well, for this reason , I didn't feel like doing anything today.
And the worse thing is the sales campaign is starting on this Friday, I can imagine myself lose control again during this period.
Every single time before the sales campaign, I doubted myself for getting this job for the first place.
And now I am stocked, seems like if I cant have this new opportunity in Rome, I will have to always work in showroom. Because other job I am not interested also.
Either Design or Sell.


How ironic isn't it, that design is what I will do because I am crazy in love with, and selling is something which I am really good at it.


I always complained that the only reason I got this job is to stay in Milan , and now surely I regret ed because there is no reason for me to keep staying here.


Until dinner time, I was chatting my previous coworker and happen to be  my  roommate.

From the anger of current work to the winter time in 2011.
We were running out money because I finished my stage and unfortunately my ex boss refused to hire me as an official worker.

I didn't want to head home yet because I knew that I just needed an opportunity, then everything would be different.
Too bad, that I could only do is to stay home and wait for my blackberry once a while rang.

We wanted to give another shot, which using the factory we knew to sell some production to a close client.
Amazingly, it did work out.
In one month we had 10000 euro income and we split into two.



Right that moment, I realized : that  was the the motivation to work in an actual showroom.

What happened during these years in work, bad or sad, I always could find the way to overcome.
Because I knew something better is coming, the first thing I had to do is just to survive.
No matter whoever was impolite to me, I always smiled and tried to do my best.
I know once I will have the connection and experience, that I am going to open a showroom on my own.
And that is the only way to start my own collection without wishing any investors.

Life needs passion and dreams, or life is empty and non sense at all.
I will never know people around me, close to me had noticed that I was different because I lost my faith and my dream.

However, I am grateful although I did lost something important in my life.
But now I refund that dream, seems silly and naive but hey, guess what no one had imagined that I can survive until now here.
As my title in my blog, from little country to big city. I am still here.

With my what I found today, I will keep fighting with a calm mood.
Everything I am doing now is for a better future, or should I say that I don't know my future will be better, but I am sure I will not end up working in this showroom forever.


Cheers!!!!
And in advance in case I forgot!
Thank you, whoever read or had read my blog.
It"s getting 1000 reviews !!!!
Whoever you are, I want to say thank you.
Whatever you feel after reading my blog, I still want to thank you.

And I wish everyone can find their inner peace to fight for what we dream of.

good night and again, thank you!:)