Dream

what is my dream, I was wondering these days....
to be a designer or a successful business woman?
I put too much energy to try to escape this questions on my relationship for the past years
And it came the time to reconsider...

The life in showroom is too boring and that is why i got too comfortable.

To be a fashion designer requires lots to do....branding,collection,fabrics,and all the rest.
I had or have the passion...still remains as a question.

But what I am sure now is that the job in showroom really upsets me.
I kinda feel its enough the time and experience talking about numbers.
afterall,get in the showroom was a decision which I was forced to do regarding the visa and money.

but I got scared to fight again,to fulfill my dream after I have this salary and visa.

I just felt my life is empty and wondered maybe its time to get married..

I knew I will regret one day.Or you can say I was already regreting or I would be happier.

Today I went to a photographer"s house and he showed me lots of his works and designs.
At that moment all I can say was dream comes true

I want to feel fight for something again,because without a dream,I felt really empty.

Maybe considering changing a job?
maybe considering to have a second job?

maybe the second one because I really can use some money.

My dream cant be just emailing clients in office or try to brand our brands.

I didnt come to Milan for these.
For more dreams and make them come true each day.

Maybe this is the main reason I cant cheer myself up.
or being needy all the time.

Go Go Go,Noticing it is the first step to move on to the steps following.